Monday, March 22, 2010

Sow your dreams.

I think dreams die when we stop having the heart to believe in them and we start accepting okay satisfaction.

It starts with saying " Okay, its no big deal, I'll just do this.."
Its starts and doesn't stop.

I have this friend who wants to be an artist.
She paints with desire, passion, and love. Even zeal, in the pursuit of happiness.
The brush strokes of her brush and the movement of her coal pencil is a way to express her worship to the God she's in love with.

No one,not her mother, friends, school,or anything it seems, helps her move in the positive direction of becoming this fine artist.
The kind of fine artist that moves hearts like your and mine.
The kind that brings color to this black and white world.
She is the blue, green, red, and yellow or our time, if this passion and dream stops, then we are back to black and white.
I along with many other fine people have decided to stand up straight beside this wonderful young lady Picasso and fuel her fire of art. This is what it takes.
A blank canvas, inspiration, and people who ...believe.

I will never ever settle for this black and white colored life.
I have a dream and a passion.
Here what they are....
1. To love everyone I can while there is breath in these lungs.
2. With this air in my lungs, I want to speak of life and goodness. 2 things that go hand and hand.
3. To travel and see what Millport Alabama could never show me.
4. Write songs that don't stress me out and relieves others of their stress.
5. To be married and adopt a child, and make family to him or her, the most beautiful thing that will stick with them for life.
6. Finally, discover more of God and live a life completely pleasing to Him, because I am fulfilled and joyful knowing that through Him things are made possible.

I tend to live out these dreams and desires by surrounding myself with people that have a vision... small or big... They are the ones that can relate to the way my heart feels.
I plan on reading books that move me in such a way that I write a book.

I plan on listening to music that sways my hips for me and fills me with a spirit of goodness.

I plan on listening.
I mean really listening to what people have to say.
Like the times there eyes are glossy looking and you know that them speaking this will change life.

I plan on setting goals, small to big, and accomplishing them.

I have been really re-cindering life.
Why am I in school?
College has been so amazing to me, but only because the people are amazing.
Being away from home and discovering thoughts of others has been amazing but, I mean academic wise.
What is the point of going to school, spending tons of cash, only for me to fail classes and to not learn.
I learn when I'm on my time and when I have the desire to learn something, I do.
I go to barnes and noble and read it.
But I do desire to be better at school.
I do want to do better.
So I'm reading a book on reading comprehension, I feel that would help.
I think sometimes desiring, having a passion, and dreaming comes from something you don't want to do, but in the end by doing it, your knowledge, desire, and passion of dreaming is expanded.
Thats why its necessary for us to go through change and seasons of growth( the good and the bad)
I recently went to North Carolina and realized that there are so many beautiful places that my feet have never touched, and there are bodies of people I have yet to embrace in my arms and share life with them , and they share life with me.
I recently realized that dating is not for me .... right now.
I want to do many things, and learning about who Cameron Moore is, is a solo job, so I can better myself for someone that will love me. Weather their is a woman to do that or not, I don't know, but before I date just any ole gal, I need to know Cameron is taken care of, so I can better take care of the ole gal.
I want to spend time with God and name the animals.
For every girls heart I broke, I'm sorry, but know I am acknowledgeable of this, and I promise you deserve someone better, so smile and move on, and get over it. You are young, I'm not our lifemate. Figure out who you are and enjoy being by yourself so you can later enjoy being yourself around someone.
It all comes full circle.
I'm doing the same.

I can do what I put my mind to, but I can live out what I put my heart out into.
Things are possible for me.
And they are for you.
I walk in the light of God who promises guidance on my stumbling feet, this is for you and I.

So, I want to encourage you to dream!!
To desire something and go for it.
Something of worth.
Something that you can look back on and feel fulfilled, not satisfied, but fulfilled!
I want you to pursue your hearts desires.
To not surrounded yourself with negative people and their crap vibe.
To be around people who want to see you grow in the things you love. Not drugs or sex or anything of that degrading when taken out of content.

Life is a hand stretch away, reach out and grab it.
Don't be afraid
Don't worry

Trust, live, see, and be.

I love you and hope with all my heart that these words are not of Cameron Moore, but of something greater and it truly touch's your heart and mind to just simple...

Move and start your accomplishment.

I plant my dreams
and I attend to sow them.

Monday, March 15, 2010

In my place..

Love will come.
I long to be in love with a girl that balances me out.

Please, please, please come back and sing to me.

Thank you Coldplay.


Saturday, March 13, 2010

In my fathers footsteps.

There is something beautiful and resting, or connecting about being back at home.

Now, this is a weird statement coming from me, seeing how I've never really felt at home anywhere.

Millport, Alabama is this redneck hick town that no one would expect me to come from... and I kind of love it.

Today my father and I went to Sprulls auto shop and had my truck worked on.
My dad is a very wonderful man, very stand up guy.
Known by many people and is pretty sociable.
Hard worker and is an amazing Bs'er.
Now, BS means bull crap, no need for cuss words cause I do have an education.
When we get to this auto shop, I meet 2 other men.
Danny and Ricky.
Both uber redneck but great guys.
My father and Danny are friends so the first thing they do is shoot the BS
Now, my day is a pro bull shooter, one second its " Hey, how are you?"
then its " I dont think these turkeys know weather to mate or go back into hibernation."
He makes this great small talk with this man.
and they find common ground.

I myself like my father am the same way.
I find this random bull to shoot and go for it.
Because I want to find common ground with men.
Now, weather you want to admit this or not.....
All men want to fall in love.
All men long for the touch of a woman ( or man, but thats another blog)
All men want to rule and have authority.

I started talking to Danny about his marriage which lead me to tell him about the love of my life.
He has 5 kids and one on the way.
He told me how hard it is sometimes and like a man, I want to find common ground to keep this bull shooting going..
Now, I'm not married but I can relate...
I have a room mate and I serve a God that desires to know me..
That I know if I want this relationship to work, it takes work.
It takes one bending to the other, and as a man, I'm prideful and hate the idea of bending my shoulder to any why-hoo.
But I was able to lay this pride down and let God bend my heart and be able to accept love from Him.
I go on to tell him how Jesus desires us and we don't so much with Him.
In John 15:16 he says " For I chose you, even when you didnt choose Me."
That He really wants to know us
in the verse john 15:7 " Abide in Me and I'll abide in you."
So he wants us to draw close to Him, yet we don't want to bend our shoulders or our hearts cause with this God there is no common ground........

Now that is very untrue...

He made us and He knows us.

He even says we are His first fruits.
We are His best and favorite creation
He wants to walk, speak, love, and give us life, more then just breath in our nostrils.
He wants to give us purpose, plan, and allow us to walk in light so we wont stumble in the dark.
He came into the world, not to condemn but to bring light, but people would rather trip in the darkness then to walk with eyes open and ready to see-John
Our common ground with God is authority.

He says " I am the way the truth and the life."
He clams "I am Light"
"I am bread"
and we disagree and decide not to bend our shoulders, so we shoot bull with God, but God isnt so good at it, He knows our hearts, He says "worship Me in honesty and truth"
And after all there is only so much Bull to be shot.

Our common ground with God is also love.
God is love
and in Him we have a lighted path and love that a naked woman( or man) could satisfy.
His love is a living water that never makes us thirst again-John 4
His love satisfies
the other kind is temporary and leaves us going back trying to find more.
God's love is one to stick with.

Today I walked in the steps of both my fathers..
and it was fulfilling.

I long to have the knowledge of how to work on trucks and other manly things so I can always have common ground with other men.
Jesus Christ was man, and that is the most important common ground.
He understands.

Now weather you believe or not, I dont know.
But I do care and I do respect you.
This is my blog and it will consist or things like this.
I love you and I hope you enjoy my thoughts and read them with open minds and hearts, as simpley just an encouragement, not me forcing beliefs.
From my heart to yours.
This is who I am and what I'm about.
Have an amazing day!


Points: Common ground
God is authority
God is love
and then there is Jesus.
We all want common ground, and thats how we relate.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Jesus and Nicodemus

So this is my first blog
I'm not really worried about first impressions
judgmental thoughts
or rude comments.
This is where I will go to share my thoughts and express my heart.
This is where..... I'll write in words..... my heart.

There is this book I read called the Bible.
It is like no other book.
In this book there is this man.
He came into the world as a light not to condemn but to bring life.
But people would rather walk, I would rather walk, in the darkness and stumble, then to walk smoothly with the hand of life interlaced in mine.

In John 3 Jesus meets with Nicodemus
in John 3 Jesus meets with me....

Nicodemus is this wise Pharisee teacher
full of knowledge and knowing
but lacking belief

The more I read the more I realized I relate to this Nicodemus dude
Jesus asks him " Are you a teacher of Israel and don't know these things?"
That He has proven Himself through many events who He is.
And still there is no belief

Jesus has showed Himself to me in many ways
making Himself known to me
very evident
and yet I fail to believe.
My heart is un-responsive.

The one who believes in the Son has eternal life-36
Im sick of only having eternal life on certain days
Im ready to believe everyday.
Jesus is love of my life
I want to want Jesus

I'm tired or being stone hearted
it is my biggest secret sometimes.
I'm tired of people not caring to know Christ through attitudes
like these
like mine

I dont feel like furthering these thoughts.

Welcome to my page.
Its only going to hold truth and honesty.

Love yall