I remember when I first started praying for a wife...
I was 13 and just accepted Christ.
I knew then, at such a young age, that every Godly man needs a Godly woman.
I'll skip the great detail of the in-between 13-21...
Years I have ravaged hearts.
Years I have given away pieces of mine.
Years I have spent wanting more and also wanting less..
and it left me with a messed up mind and a heart heavier than ever.
I decided to start a journey. More of a healing process.
Its one that could be so ugly.
I want to..
I want to face
There has to be more to life than finding yourself in a pit of regret, knowing what the Truth is, but hiding it from myself.
I don't want my desire to be a woman no longer
but Gods own heart.
There needs to be a change.
I'll spare you the deep writing and tell you bluntly
any man who wishes to change must remember that his old man still remains and doesn't want to be replaced.
I just have to find who I want to be.
I don't want to walk with regret.